Finally achieved my goal of waking up early (5-6am starts).
How ever this comes at a cost – I become tired much more easily and I also need to sleep earlier so I cannot get as much done at night.
I haven’t posted in a while but reading over previous posts this helps me keep track of my goals and whats important to me.
I’m slowly making progress in the building industry – it is a slow process for me so far, I need capital to start developing and building as opposed to say, maybe someone starting a tech business with just a laptop. I’m currently studying law and carpentry as well as completing a building course. Next week I start at TAFE so I will have a lot on my plate to work on, then uni will start as well after that so everything is quite busy right now.
I am having regular meetings with my psychiatrist and I can feel my confidence growing and myself becoming stronger every day and every week, bit by bit, brick by brick to build this strong wall inside of myself.
I know, I shouldn’t start off my first blog post about being rejected by this girl but it plays on my mind and tests me. I want to be able to have a stronger masculine emotional frame and confidence so this is able to bounce right off me, I’m certain this mentality carries over to other areas of life when we fail, being able to focus on whats ahead instead of how bad it was and forgetting to learn from it. Regardless I think about this woman every now and then, not to mention I’m in uni and i’m fairly sure she mentioned it to a close male friend of hers who is constantly smug toward me with a shit eating grin on his face and I don’t know if he is spreading rumors/hate about me. This man is no better than who I am, I want to be the best man possible. When shit like this happens though, I am constantly questioning my masculinity and ability to deal with these types of situations – the entire thing just makes me furious, but I need to ignore and hold frame.
Important items I completed today
- Wrote first blog post