I don’t know why I am complaining about this – I signed up for the carpentry course I’m currently completing. to be honest I really want to work in the construction industry and I can once I complete my law degree, how ever I get one week off and it turns out that the course lands on that week – I am trying to look at it in a positive light, that I don’t miss out on any uni because its holidays but that’s been difficult. I should look at it in a way that ‘I get to do what I love for an entire week straight’. I’m sick of studying but I have to continue and persist be limitless and just enjoy it all.
Just going to ramble on about life/goals
Things are starting to pick up with gym, ive decided to go nearly every day in order to reach my goal body which is a particular person i have in mind. Affording the correct healthy foods is difficult as it is expensive and also time consuming to cook proper food, currently i am slightly above the weight i would like to be at and holding more body fat than i should but it seems to be slowly dropping off.
In regard to my building and development goal i have started a building diploma and a carpentry certificate and am learning these simultaneously as the more knowledge i have the better prepared i will be for my first development, further to this i have also slowly started quoting odd trade jobs such as handyman services etc, this hasn’t worked out too well but i can only get more confident and better from here. I need to start earning a decent living if i am going to achieve this goal.
Law goal – where to start on becoming a lawyer, i am currently studying still however dropped my study load to 3 subjects as opposed to 4 – i fail subjects here and there which just wasn’t good enough so in order to see if i could keep up i dropped 1, its still so far off becoming a lawyer but i know ill get there eventually, still have placement to go, practicing certificate and business studies.
I still want to be limitless, just like the movie – i know its not real life but to accomplish so much and be the best top version of yourself is what i am striving for.
I need to learn to speak another language and I want to have extreme social success. Being social for an introvert with anxiety is difficult, but this is a website of positivity coupled with struggles so I am getting better with my social skils although I am taking every opportunity to talk with people and get better
Finally achieved my goal of waking up early (5-6am starts).
How ever this comes at a cost – I become tired much more easily and I also need to sleep earlier so I cannot get as much done at night.
I haven’t posted in a while but reading over previous posts this helps me keep track of my goals and whats important to me.
I’m slowly making progress in the building industry – it is a slow process for me so far, I need capital to start developing and building as opposed to say, maybe someone starting a tech business with just a laptop. I’m currently studying law and carpentry as well as completing a building course. Next week I start at TAFE so I will have a lot on my plate to work on, then uni will start as well after that so everything is quite busy right now.
I am having regular meetings with my psychiatrist and I can feel my confidence growing and myself becoming stronger every day and every week, bit by bit, brick by brick to build this strong wall inside of myself.
This is the first blog post in a while. I am starting to be more disciplined, organised, and make more progress. However there is one downside – I am on multiple medications at any given time to get through the day…I think ill have a wash out or break once uni is over, this is just difficult as the psych meds have changed my mood quite a bit (for the better) how ever this has made me stress free and relaxed so I need to adjust to this new way of thinking and my mindset is currently changing slowly.
Anyway I have begun working on my legal placement, my building business and getting my builders licence (however the forms and proof required is ridiculous). Further I am getting help with my law studies and am confident in my ability to pass. I am also still seeing the psychiatrist on a somewhat weekly basis.
Further I have been listening to podcasts that have greatly expanded my way of thinking. I am still trying to discover myself and what it means to be masculine and be a man.